Dorcasing Away...

2012-02-02T15:08:00.000-08:00

Paris was lovely...

And these are the lovely gifts from my 巴黎恋人... =)

Draft #1

2012-01-17T17:21:00.000-08:00

2011-12-29T17:38:00.000-08:00

December was good! ;-)

That reminds us we are 5 months away from D-day!

2011-08-17T21:27:00.000-07:00

My heart skips a beat whenever I'm reminded of how much time I'm left with... *BAWLS*

Because it's time for another pleasant surprise =*)

2011-08-05T12:34:00.000-07:00

2011-05-27T23:39:00.000-07:00

And the countdown begins...

Well... Technically, it's minus 1. =)

On leave for 2 more weeks as the man serves the nation!

2011-04-08T13:55:00.000-07:00

When the cat is away, the mouse is out to play... Tee hee!

2011-04-01T18:18:00.000-07:00

2011-02-09T17:37:00.000-08:00

I'm taking a little break from all that planning. Can't think of what else that needs to be done. Or rather I'm getting a little bit too lazy to think. Not to mention I have a modern mum and modern popo who prefers to save all the hassle! Woots!

2011-01-31T23:51:00.000-08:00

I guess I do see some progress along the way. Let's look forward to more!

2011-01-17T10:42:00.000-08:00

I have to stop emo-ing... It's not doing me any good!

2011-01-10T16:28:00.000-08:00

Don't make me compromise and give up on anymore things. I can no longer trust your promises...

2011-01-03T15:11:00.000-08:00

Is there such a thing known as fear of marriage? I suppose there is.

The fear of uncertainty gripped me. So tightly that I could not breathe. I guess since I have made the choice by my own free will, I could only ask for grace and more grace to live on.

***

Identify me as a pampered kid. Too used to being treated as a princess I could not imagine days living under another roof and being treated like a person on probation. I am horrified at the expectations placed on me by not 1 not 2 but several people. I would love to dote on my in-laws just as I do to my parents but I need a lot more understanding as I too am educated (a little stubborn) and hence have a mind of my own, spoilt by parents and bf (occasionally), have other committments and love to have fun like any other young peeps. :(

***

Tears choked me the more I think about it. Apprehension sets in as the days draw nearer. And yes... It used to be "2 more years". Now we are talking about next year.

2011-01-01T22:36:00.000-08:00

Am glad that you are clique-ing well with the clique. Thank you for being so sporting always.

Am happy that you have blessed us when it comes to hitching a ride. Thank you for your generosity.

Am excited that we are planning for something big in 2011 and executing it in 2012. Thank you for your love.

Hope we'll have an awesome time doing more things together in the coming year! =)

Ideally speaking...

2010-11-07T12:08:00.000-08:00

2010-10-29T21:07:00.000-07:00

I just don't like black pepper sauce! HMPH!

That's just me being straightforward. Yea.

2010-10-10T23:02:00.000-07:00

Because it's 10.10.10. He proposed!

*bling bling*

2010-09-26T10:49:00.000-07:00

Marriage is a lifelong commitment.

***

The beginning of the end?

*gasps*

2010-09-12T23:45:00.000-07:00

There are times when you can only say: I'm really sorry.

***

To you, you, you, you, you.

You make me want to LOL!

2010-09-03T22:53:00.000-07:00

From: Yun Da Gan
To: weddings.singapore@fairmont.com

Hi Angelina,

Name of Groom: Gan Yun Da
Contact: 9436 ****
Name of Bride: Zhuo Miaoxia
Contact: 9617 ****
Date of Wedding: 11/11/2011
Number of table expected: 50

The event is from 10 - 6pm, can we go in anytime? Or is there a fixed program schedule from 10 to 6 which we must follow tru-out?

Regards,
Yun Da

LOL reason#1: Date of wedding.
LOL reason#2: 50 tables are for friends from JB and relatives from China?

I love my Burberry and I love you too! =D

2010-08-18T00:00:00.000-07:00

2010-08-15T23:54:00.000-07:00

Once again, popo popped the question: WHEN ARE U GETTING MARRIED?!

***

Old people just can't wait to be ah-zor after they become ah-ma...

2010-08-06T11:33:00.000-07:00

You promised me a birthday present from Japan!

*eyes sparkle*

2010-07-25T13:16:00.000-07:00

To protect is a man's natural instinct. As much as I don't see the need, you still have to hold my hand whenever we cross any road.

***

Oh yes, I feel protected. =)

2010-07-03T13:08:00.000-07:00

While walking home, we witnessed a little girl who fell down and the first words from her dad was: See lah! Walk also don't know how to walk properly!

***

MX: Eh... Next time if your kids fall down, what will you say/do?

YD: (with fingers pointing and agitated body language) U STUPIDDDD!!!! DON'T KNOW HOW TO WALK IS IT?! YOUR EYES GROW ON YOUR BUTT HUH?!

MX: *eyes wide open* jaws drop*

YD: Then what about you??

MX: I would say "Are you ok??"

YD: Huh... I want to be your kid...

***

Entertain me with somemore of your crap!

2010-06-22T01:09:00.000-07:00

This time!

2010-06-19T11:34:00.000-07:00

It's going to be a busy time until after Aug. When can we spend quality time together???

*whines*

2010-06-14T21:56:00.000-07:00

When was the last time we took a proper foto?!

2010-06-13T11:50:00.000-07:00

We are so different from the others and yet what we want is the same thing.

2010-06-03T22:18:00.000-07:00

The fear of things that are too good to be true.

2010-05-30T00:48:00.000-07:00

We are all grown ups who know a lot yet only do a little.

***

It's like a do or die thing now.

2010-05-27T23:56:00.000-07:00

Blk 88 #16-47 Dawson Rd S142088 = Dream House

2010-05-12T22:34:00.000-07:00

Don't be so nice to me otherwise I will have problems living without you...

2010-05-02T11:52:00.000-07:00

What lies ahead

2010-04-29T21:28:00.000-07:00

There are times when you say really sweet things to me and I really love the sweetness!

2010-04-25T10:45:00.000-07:00

All for love, I had a stiff neck...

2010-04-18T11:51:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry for I did not mean to be disobedient. I made a choice that was opposite of your will for me and now I had to live with it because I could not give up. I am still hoping that something good will come out of it. I can't bear the thought of someone getting hurt and having the wrong idea about christians. Neither do I want to be separated with them for eternity. I will try my best to be the best testimony in the family. Even if I may not be the best, I want to be a good one. I know your love compels and your love gave us the free will to choose. I may have chosen what others think is the wrong path but I have come so far, I do not want to go through it all over again. I may not have totally comprehend the love and security that you can give but I hope I can get the understanding though I know it will be tough. I hope I can still earn some respect from people and not be totally condemned by them. I hope I can still get along with people and not be ostracized by them. I hope I can be like Cinderella living happily forever after.

2010-04-15T20:53:00.000-07:00

5 and counting.....

2010-04-13T21:09:00.000-07:00

Against all odds I am going for my steak dinner less the candlelight.

2010-04-08T21:08:00.000-07:00

This is not getting anywhere. We are not getting anywhere.

***

When was the last time I cried so hard for us

2010-04-06T22:35:00.000-07:00

Our love story is......

2010-03-27T23:11:00.000-07:00

There are really times when I feel like giving up...

2010-03-22T21:41:00.000-07:00

When will we ever open our eyes to see what's ahead of us???

2010-03-18T20:53:00.000-07:00

As we are coming to 5, I realise there's so many things to fight for. Rekindle that romance and whisper more sweet nothings to me. What am I sulking over? I might be the one who will fail to put in effort in time to come so what can I say?

***

I never thought I could last so long but well... Since we've already gone so far, might as well go further.

***

Where were we??? Oh yes, I need more sparks in this relationship lest I sulk myself to sleep every night.

2010-03-14T21:27:00.000-07:00

4 years 11 mths...

Coming to 5...

Just nice...

2010-03-08T21:56:00.000-08:00

Where oh where are we heading??

2010-03-01T22:15:00.000-08:00

If you show just a little bit enthusiasm, that would just make the relationship livelier...

***

sugar, spice and everything nice

2010-02-26T09:48:00.000-08:00

Reality sets in when I realise there are so much planning to do to start a family. I hate the thought where money is involved in everything. I hate the thought of having to answer to people why I spend so much on a HDB. I hate the thought of working just enough to settle housing debts. I hate the thought of having to handle in-laws. I hate the thought of having to sacrifice so many things.

===

*waves the white flag*

2010-02-25T22:00:00.000-08:00

Love is when you give me my favourite ah-tap-ji even though I made you angry... Hee...

2010-02-16T12:32:00.000-08:00

Which girl would be so crazy enough to play that dangerous board with you other than me.

Who would fall face down on the floor and climb up to continue skating with you other than me.

Who would have become so tough and courageous now other than me.

Who would stick with you through thick and thin other than me.

Who would cry, laugh and fall together with you other than me.

***

Who would know this is our coming 5 yrs!

2010-02-10T18:31:00.000-08:00

I really appreciate the way you take care of me. For rushing down to make sure I was alright even though dance practice was tiring and there is work the next day. I know I will be well taken care of in future. Thank you for your love, da. =)

2010-01-27T21:00:00.000-08:00

Cliche as it may sound but... Wish you were here

2010-01-25T13:55:00.000-08:00

Kinda disappointed when I was looking forward but you are so busy...

2010-01-18T22:34:00.000-08:00

Leave some space for me to breathe...

2009-12-28T22:05:00.000-08:00

Come and say hi to my ears and I'll show you what's love and generosity. =)

2009-12-25T22:16:00.000-08:00

It was a butterflies in the stomach kinda feeling. I never expected things to turn out so well! The eve celebration was great and I loved it!

***

We had fun knowing more about each other. We laughed through the night. We appreciated one another individually.

***

I was shocked that I had to give a short appreciation speech. I was tongue-tied and I blabbered away. I was more shocked when as someone who barely knew the clique took the courage to stand up and appreciate me in front of them. It was the most romantic thing I could ever imagine and expect.

***

Never did I expect I could be so comfortable mixing with the clique together with my partner. I hope there would be more of such gatherings in future. I hope we really get to understand how the other side of our life works.

***

Now im pretty sure there will be very good friends who will back me up and "yam seng" for my wedding dinner! =)

2009-12-22T23:33:00.000-08:00

I wonder how old couples survive seeing the same old irritating face everyday...

***

Training starts the day you chose UOB Orchard branch. Argh...

2009-11-10T23:03:00.000-08:00

Surprise me! With a DS! Yay!

2009-11-02T01:07:00.000-08:00

Love hurts..

It really does...

2009-10-11T20:25:00.000-07:00

My Valentine
~Martina McBride~
***
If there were no words, no way to speak
I would still hear you
If there were no tears, no way to feel inside
I'd still feel for you
-
And even if the sun refused to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart until the end of time
You're all I need, my love, my valentine
-
All of my life I have been waiting for all you give to me
You've opened my eyes, and shown me how to love unselfishly
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I've dreamed of this a thousand times before
In my dreams I couldn't love you more
I will give you my heart until the end of time
You're all I need my love my valentine

2009-10-09T10:59:00.000-07:00

One moment I was on cloud nine, another moment u brought me right down. Why should I care about which estate is going to have new flats when you aren't showing the least bit of seriousness in popping that question? I do not need fireworks or any super duper boomz stuff but I just want something unforgettable. Like obviously... Which girl doesn't look forward to that?! Im sure you are not dumb but im positive you are quite slow. U got me totally pissed and I just don't feel like communicating with you until you begin to understand how I feel as girl waiting for her dream to come true.

2009-10-08T22:03:00.000-07:00

My Happy Pill!

*****

I feel so happy after seeing you during lunch today! Shower me with more love and TLC. =D

2009-10-04T12:41:00.000-07:00

Wherever you found the picture, just want to say thumbs up for the effort! *lovely*

2009-09-27T21:15:00.000-07:00

It is your choice, it is your challenge. Take it up boldly and jiayou! As much as I won't be able to understand 100% of what you are going through, I will still try to even if it's only 1%. Your support is my support and vice versa. Get well soon baby!

2009-09-09T20:53:00.000-07:00

It's worse than BMT, outfield and overseas project.

***

You don't complain, so how can I...

2009-09-06T09:53:00.000-07:00

Happy 24th Birthday Smelly!

Tired as you looked but I still hope you'll enjoy this day. =)

2009-08-22T10:29:00.000-07:00

There's no amount of "thank you" that I can say to appreciate what you have given out. It's more than just a help. It speaks more of how ready you were to sacrifice for me. Although I was all bruised and battered, I know I still look beautiful in your eyes.

2009-08-16T14:19:00.000-07:00

It is sweet when you share your dreams and visions with me. It is sweet when we share our ideas of how a family should be like. It is sweeter when you look at me and speak to me so sweetly like you seldom do.

***

I do look forward to your plans but I think I will be quite embarrassed if my classmates and teachers find out that im really a tai tai after I get married! Then again, my utmost appreciation to you for making things happen.

2009-08-13T23:42:00.000-07:00

As I let my imagination run wild, I began to imagine how it would be like to be preparing for a wedding, to be married, to be called somebody's wife, to be pregnant, to having kids shouting for mummy and blah blah blah..... And I woke up from my dream.

Few days ago, popo randomly asked: Ler di si beh gao yin?? (When you want to get married??)

Looks like im the most promising out of everybody and gave her the highest hope of carrying a grandson but sorry popo, not so soon lah... And you will definitely live long enough to carry my baby.

Not that I do not want to be filial and fulfill the dear granny's wish, but it's really weird I think. How can I be a mummy myself when I still need to cry out to mummy for help.

How can I be a good wife when I do not even like to do housework.

How can I be a good daughter-in-law when I can't seem clique with mother and sisters-in-law who goes for Gucci & Prada & Coach.

2009-08-01T10:22:00.000-07:00

It's quite a pity that until now I still do not have a proper camera to take proper pictures. OH! I should have asked for that as a birthday present! But I think it would be way too absurd and ridiculous! Oh nvm...

Actually I just wanted to capture the fun times that smelly and I had when we are out. Honey glazed wings, white button mushrooms and some gasy drinks satisfy our supper craving stomach and the playgrounds at the park never fail to intrigue us, the 2 big children in the middle of the night. Especially seeing him turning around on that big saucer look alike thing and becoming giddy and breaking his slippers and getting all panicky. It was SUPER funny if you know what I mean when he goes: OH! OH! OH! 惨了!我的拖鞋断了!啊!!!!!

If not for my mz syndromes, I would be able to enjoy more of such... I wish I was younger and with more energy.... 岁月不留人啊...

2009-07-29T22:09:00.000-07:00

If you look at that pretty, fantasy, dreamy photo on the left, i'm quite sure most would agree its quite nicely taken. However, there is just 1 smelly person who thinks I look like a farmer with my own crop. Oh wells... Then it shall be my lavender farm!

And so on the long journey home today, the smelly person called to check out where's my exact location. On top of that, he enquired something unique.

Smelly person says: Hi Ms Farmer, how's your farm getting on? Do you grow other things other than lavender? Do you have roses? I need 1000 of them next week.

Ms Farmer says: Hmm... Actually I only have lavenders. But why do you need roses?

Smelly person says: Orh.... I want to give them to my farmer girlfriend whose birthday is next week mah.

Ms Farmer says: Ooh... That's so sweet of you... For that, I will rush it out for you!

It's been quite some time since I heard such sweet comments tho im quite sure I will not get the roses, not to mention even 1 stalk. (Remembering how hard I begged for even 1 during 14Feb). Then again, the smelly person never fails to add in humour in all his conversations.

Smelly person says: You sure your roses all straight one ah? I dowan kiao gu kiao gu ones k!

Ms Farmer says: No worries! Mine all top grade!

Smelly person says: Actually I only need 999...

Ms Farmer says: What about that 1 more?

Smelly person says: In case 1 kiao gu then got spare mah.

Ms Farmer: ......

2009-07-20T22:19:00.000-07:00

"Ok then. Don sms me anymore from now on. I will not bother u either!"

Alrite.. So this is what started the cold war which I have no idea how and when it will end.

I get so silly mad that I think I should just "follow instructions". I don't feel like giving in but on second thoughts + advices from the experienced, I should cherish what I have. Nah... I have not given in till now. Or maybe I should end this childish game to show that im the magnanimous party. Hmmm.....

2009-07-17T21:32:00.000-07:00

Anyway you wouldn't be seeing this. Anyway, I will rant my head off with words and sentence structures that I don't usually use! Pour out all my grievances and curse that you faint smelling your own fart!

I don't need what you see on the surface to determine what kinda of a home-maker I would be. Dishwashing is such a silly topic to be quarrelling over frankly speaking. It's like those "where to squeeze the toothpaste from for newly weds" issue. I will definitely take responsibility of my own home. After all, im sure i did inherit some of my mom and dad's neat freak characteristics. So you don't have to worry about living in a pig sty at all. You only have to make sure u don't "karang guni" the whole house with your fugly toys!

Your Mr.E must be acting up. Otherwise, you wouldn't be trying to differentiate who is going to do what. Or should I say your business mind is on the move. I don't need you to buy me new things or bring me to places as T&C to serve you. I'm better off with my Agnes.B without the B bag! Makes my blood boil and makes me feel like farting right in your face!

I don't need to iron the clothes and vacuum the floor right in front of you to assure you that I'll be a good home-maker. I don't need to lose that swimming float around my waist just so that I can be more visually stimulating when we make love. I don't need to lose those bye-bye fats so that I can look more attractive waving "hello" to you and your friends. I don't need to go for dermabrasion so that you can feel confident introducing me as your girlfriend. I don't need to say yes to your every command so that you think im your submissive little chick!

Why should I soul-search myself?! You do your own soul-searching then come speak to me. Stop being such a Mr. E. It disgusts me more and more these days. Thank God HDB did not grant us a flat. Thank God im not going to fall into the trap again unless I see my 1-carat. Sorry if i'm practical but that's how it works!

Being together for 4 yrs does not necessarily mean that others will assume we will be together for the next 40 yrs. I hope it's not going to be like an obligation that we stay together. Or we probably have to get a "How to make marriage work for dummies" guide which I hope that's not the case too!

=
I kinda regret taking leave today. My purpose was to make your day and not for you to spoil my day by calling me "stupid" so harshly. I should have just "idiot" you back. Eye for eye, tooth for tooth! *fuming mad*

If you think what I say makes you lose confident in getting a good wife, let me tell you this --> What you say makes me lose confident in getting a good husband too. As the saying goes... 男怕入错行，女怕嫁错郎。Oh yes! I'm going to raise both hands for that!

2009-07-13T23:05:00.000-07:00

Toys... A very essential part of the smelly I realise. He's like a small kid just gotten out of his favourite toy store with his victory items and time to time on the public transport he brings it out to admire it, keeps it, and within few minutes brings it out again to admire it again. That's how much he loves his toys! Thankfully I'm more precious than AVP, Bearbricks and Lego. Smelly says im priceless! Hehe...

2009-07-12T13:46:00.000-07:00

Sometimes we have so many expectations of our other half and to be frank we do make comparisons between our other half and others other half at times. Afterall not every one is perfect and sometimes I wish my smelly would be sweeter to me with some little actions aka 小动作 I always tell him...

Sometimes the grass seems to be greener on the other side but accept it, God made us all unique. We all will have unique ways of expressing our love. As long as we still love. =)

2009-07-07T22:52:00.000-07:00

I'm not about to start saying lovey dovey things about this 4 yr + relationship. Although it seems like a long time has passed, although there are happy moments, there are too incidents when the smelly upsets me with his insensitivity and I make him jump with my so-called "can't be bothered" attitude. It just makes me realise that maintaining a relationship isn't just 1+1 = 2. I guess its more like a+b=c where there are so many variables and you really won't know how things will turn out.

Compared to the silly "steady" we used to have in secondary schools, from a hi-bye friend -> sms friend -> dating -> boyfriend -> potential life partner -> husband requires more than effort and commitment. I have no idea how I managed to go through all these. All the tears and sweat. I'm not your xiao niao yi ren / xiao nv ren either. God's grace perhaps?

Undeniably, we have grown in our individual ways. We have made changes and compromise each other. We have learnt from each other. What makes me admire (not necessarily love) this smelly is his zest in life and goal pursuing attitude all in the name of a better future. I was hoping there would be more than just these aims in his life. It is of course my no. 1 wish that we would both work towards the same spiritual goal in the near future. Our bread of life and love of life. Im greedy. I want both. =P

My smelly who never fails to make me laugh.

Let's work hard for the future together!